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Sakit sa ulo

Paano ba ‘to?

How come I didn’t see what was in front of me. Every word said, every proof, everything that’s happening around. I don’t know how to express this feeling, I don’t know how to talk about it. Everything seems superficial, everything which I ought to hide. These secrets I find hard to accept, these truths hidden in this sugar-coated world.

Kanino?

I don’t know who will understand. I don’t know who will listen. I don’t want to be judged. I don’t want gossips to circle. There’s no one to blame but this feeling lingers, and haunts me occasionally. Days like this, nights longer and colder.


Ano?

I don’t know how to start. Am I ready for this? Confusion, confirmation I don’t know which is worse.

I’ve dreamt of kissing you.

Things untold

There are stuff that should remain unsaid, but that doesn’t mean it should remain unsound. Things untold does not need for words be associated. A subliminal take on tones spoken. This feeling is not for everyone, the soundless might hear the loudest cry and the loudest often comes deaf.

Getting confused between blogs and diaries. LOL oops, and yeah I do have a private blog. So private no one can read it. (Cause I’m not writing it) now I’m being random again. Shall I stop this nonsense now? I think not but should really get to the point before you’re pissed off…lalalalalala goodbye :)

Woke up, wanting to sleep again. This is not real

2:00 - 3:50

Magdadalawang oras na akong nakatitig sa kawalan, patay ang ilaw, walang nakikita. Ipikit mga mata hindi ko magawa. Bakit pati pagtulog ginagambala. Mga lihim na tanging mga pader ang may alam. Mga salitang sa hangin na lang binubulong. Ano itong mga na-iisip, dahilan ba ito ng pagkukubli? Anong dapat gawin? Dapat na bang sabihin? May mga bagay bang tinatago? Sa huling tala, wala. Teka bakit halo-halo paano ba makalimot. Mistulang nanibago at di sumusuko ang katawan kapag gabi’y nariyan. Tinutulugan si araw, oras naman ang nasayang. Katuwang mga lamok, na sumisipsip sa dugo. Saan maghahanap ng liwanag ngayong araw ay nasa kabilang ibayo.

4:05